She said God, as if that were my name
Saying prayers to the heavens
as if her very soul were begging
and her gates quaked from her bodies strain
Saying prayers to the heavens
but there are no questions in her facial expressions
And with the sweat dripping as if under a flame,
she said God, as if that were my name
As she whispered her blessings,
saying her prayers to heaven
She said God, as if that were my name
And she knew, that feeling, I felt the same
©2013 Taihair Brown
I was bored walking the streets for a meal
Creeping in the shadows hungry for meat
Even the song of a new moon couldn’t excite me
What was my motivation for the kill?
No longer having a reason to live
In my absence, the world grew quiet
Cutting up women sector by sector
But it felt like all I did was give and give
Where was my love at?
Floating in the air feeling empty inside
Staring at walls listening for voices no longer present
I used to love when the knife penetrated the fat
Now my soul grows restless with the hunger
What would drive me to sex the next hot body?
Bathe in her essence in the night rain
A little hot sauce while the sky thunders
Maybe the sound of the night’s applause will drive me on
Reheat that passion and awaken the darkness
A willing meat doctor ready to operate
Or maybe that lasting passion is already gone
Now I wonder if the world is even missing me
The safety of their streets realizing they missed the excitement
Where is that nervous sensation at the notion of a new moon?
Is Michael Carter just another memory in history?
They cared enough to even nickname me
But now, no one even takes caution around shadows
Not worried about your wife being cut in half
Who’s wondering if their daughter’s left bleeding in the street?
Is there still a place in the world for a serial lover?
Is loving too hard a crime?
Maybe I’m just no longer in love with the passion
Is there a place in the world where Michael can suffer?
If a meat clever could ignite the flame of forking a hot body
I would of already growled while I squeezed her like a tight rope
But with another new moon cycle, I sit in the dark alone
Floating in the air staring at clean stainless hands that look sloppy
©2013 (Michael Carter aka New Moon Killer) Taihair Brown
1st new message
I got up, decided to give you a call this morning
Up and yawning but in mourning
Missing my little brother, that’s what got me calling
I know we haven’t talked since my falling
But I decided to call anyway, hoping you’d answer
Maybe you can quell these questions moving like a dancer
Twisting in my mind, each and every way I see
I know I’m your seed, but I’m lost in this endless sea
Struggling, trying to swim without drowning
Water churns, holding my breath counting
How long can I hold it before I slip and fall into a dark void?
Shadows around every corner in my life some evil employed
Yet I try and live properly but cannot shake ill feelings
So I make this call hoping that it is not too late to start the healing
But if something were to happen to me before we can again talk
I hope you’d forgive me for the path that I have walked
Next message
I’m calling you in the late hour cause that’s the only time I feel alive
When I’m not ready to die, yet I still cry
But these tears hide on the inside
Covering these invisible scars I try and hide
Life’s lesson pulling me in different directions
I’m a mere peasant incapable of making the proper course corrections
That would explain my loss and lack of a path to walk
And so here I am giving you a ring, hoping we could talk
But a fury sleeps deep within that promise’s to devour me
It keeps me awake a night for I fear the dreams in my sleep
Yet I feel alive in the darkness and empty void, breathing in its air
The daylight brings sorrow worse than the scariest nightmare
So if sleep is the cousin of death and darkness, the evils grip on life
Then the lying awake in the light is the glare from the reapers scythe
Pardon the anger in the tone of my voice
I needed to make this call because I’m feeling the lack of choice
But if this anger keeps us, again, from talking
I hope you’d forgive me for this path that I have walked
©2013 Taihair Brown
I was hoping we could, have again what we had yesterday
That L-O-V-E that, for days, kept both of us smiling
But I didn’t know how much I loved it till it started to fade away
I tried to move on, telling myself that I was happy while lying
False words to myself, trying to keep these emotions at bay
Sitting alone in a dark room, promising myself there’d be no crying
Maybe we can, once again, make this love grow
Taking the time to come together and talk it out, so let me know
I was hoping we could recreate this love from square one
Start from scratch and bring back that happy feeling we once had
Make it so we’re back in each other’s arms when it’s all said and done
I was young, though it’s no excuse for making things go so bad
I just know that I need you back more than the grass needs the sun
You brought a light into my world and I turned around and made you sad
But, it wouldn’t hurt to once again try and rediscover that love
And if we could talk it out, I could get that feeling I’ve been devoid of
I swear I won’t let you go, trying to match what we once had, today
Like a blind gold miner, I didn’t know what a treasure I had found
The times we spent together laughing before love went a stray
I need you back and you need me back around
Distant stares and false smiles from afar as we quickly look the other way
I’ll do what it takes to make this love grow, starting back from the ground
It wouldn’t hurt to once again try and find that love of old
So let’s try and make this love whole
©2013 Taihair Brown
Every mother on Earth gave birth to a child.
-Except my mother, she gave birth to a legend
That might sound cocky, but I believe it so
I have too to be able to accomplish much more
Be better than the average, one of the many
Accept something more in my life
Taking nothing less than the best
Living up to my own legendary boast
Judge me for my words,
Judge me more for my actions
Accepting nothing more than the best
And this gives me no time to rest
My mother gave birth to nothing less
-Nothing less than a legend
I repeat this daily
So I have no choice but to make it true
Copyright©2013 Taihair Brown
The quietness of the night lets me think on my life
All the pain and suffering that came, whether day or night
But there was also happiness, smiles, and laughs
For all the sadness, there were times that made me glad
–Glad to be alive, glad to be able to breathe the air under the sun
Glad I was given legs that were capable and able to run
When so many people are lying up in a coffin
I take thanks often that I can get up in the morning, coughing
A sour reminder that I’m still alive and functioning
So you will not budge me even when I’m cold or struggling
Through all the pain and strife, I make every time my time
And if that’s a crime, I accept responsibility for my climb
–Climbing the ladder to a higher mental plane
Strengthening my mind, preparing for life’s physical strain
Losing friends, family, and still walking away fully upright
Even when I find myself up at night trying to fight
–Fight the shadows, the ghost; say a prayer for the dead
Accepting the decisions I made and lying in that bed
Sleeping with my lies, my truths, my joy, and my pain
And if you’re my bother, I’ll stand with you with nothing to gain
No hands out, no payoffs just to support those that need me
I need no extra reason why to stand with my loves, my family
–Family and culture define my life, shapes my life
I said my life, which translates, to my world under one light
A light I shine that will never turn off, never lose power
As long as I take this breath, my life, a forever-growing flower
Copyright©2013 Taihair Brown
I see my reflection in your eyes,
and you and mines
A picturesque image where nothing else-
Nothing else exists
That gleam in your eyes,
It is something special
Makes me want to be with you
You are the one for me,
And I for you
I see me in your eyes,
And you in mines
A love that runs so deep,
I want to write your name in the skies
No question in my mind
Words no longer needed
Your eyes say everything
Telling me what is on your mind
And my eyes respond in kind
I see my love in your eyes,
And yours in mind
It gets no better than you
What’s my favorite part of you?
It’s your eyes cause every time I look,
I see me in your eyes
Copyright©2013 Taihar brown
