As I sit and cry, reminiscing about everyone I lost
All the friends that I buried, listening to angels sing
I try holding back the tears but they still find a way
Losing my mind, forgetting how it feels to smile
Every time I see kids playing free I begin to break
Remembering the times we played ball in the park
Nights playing tag before mama yelled at me
The pain of growing and discovering a world so cold
What am I to do with friends vanishing one after another?
Praying looking for answers but getting the voicemail
Are they looking down upon me keeping watch?
All those I ever lost, friends and family alike
I miss you, all of you that I used to share laughs with
Laughs, tears, happiness, and sadness with the living
Now it’s just tears and misery thinking about the dead
Is there any peace when death dictates the rules?
And it engages in an ill dance with the forgotten children
So they grow into adults embracing the gun smoke
And we bury another life as their light goes out
Will the tears ever stop or should I wait till they call
Then once again I can laugh with those I love
And I pass my tears off to the next person
In this life of rain and pain, they can reminisce about me