Truths & Lies

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She wanted to sing me a ballad.

Looked to me, said she had fallen in love.

Told me that I made her life valid.

I had no words, so I just gave her a hug.

 

In a pallid world, she was my sun,

but I was a fool and never saw the smoking gun.

She knew not love and poisoned my heart

with her words as she was lying from the start.

 

©2017 Taihair Brown

depression

Darkness is more than the absence of light.

It’s a feeling of emptiness in oneself.

Words get caught in your throat,

leaving you unable to communicate the pain.

 

Darkness doesn’t come from the closing of eyes.

It’s not your inability to see that is lacking,

but what the world doesn’t see within you—

That invisible pain without an outward appearance.

 

Darkness is not the mere absence of windows

and there is no way to peer into someone’s soul.

No one can see the internal struggle you face.

All they see is the smile that masks that pain.

 

Darkness is not an appearance that one can see.

What your eyes do not witness can hurt worse—

Worse than any physical wound inflicted upon you.

Depression; the silent killer of the mind, body and soul.

Copyright © 2017 Taihair Brown

Don’t Shoot

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Dancing to the Devil under Gods sun.
Officer, please answer my cries and pleas.
No one will mourn for me is what they’ll think.
Terrified because you have a gun in my face.

Shaking, not because I’m a threat, but because of the threat.
How many tears must I shed before you notice my fear?
Officer, I just want to go home to my kids and kiss them goodnight.
Open your eyes and see my humanity, please.
Tell my family that I love them…
Copyright © 2016 Taihair Brown

Hope for a Heaven

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What’s a non-religious man to do

if he doesn’t believe in heaven,

but he sees a cruel world that is sick?

So many deaths since last May.

So much hate poisoning what’s on my plate.

There has to be something better than this.

If heaven exists….

May it exist so there’s something better.

Something better than this place.

They say that hell is a real place.

Can it really be worse than this?

War, racism, sexism and greed.

For our sake, I hope there is a heaven.

Is it real?
It’s hard so say now when living in hell.

What’s a non-religious man to do?

Try and be strong,

but you aren’t trying to hear me.

You have church in the morning—

This after you stomped a dude at the club.

Just the day before, a kid lost his life.

Makes a non-religious hope for a heaven

cause there’s got to be a better place than this.

 

Copyright © 2016 Taihair Brown

When the Heart Leaves

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There’s no letter left when it leaves.

No knock at the door to say goodbye.

Just the quiet whisper of a closing door.

No chance at a “don’t leave, please.”

 

It did it with so much ease.

Couldn’t even look me in the face to lie.

Left without a word while I snored.

I was left to wake and fall to my knees.

 

I see the sun peaking from behind the trees,

Shining a light upon the tears in my eyes

Before they fall from my face to the floor.

I should have never trusted someone with the keys.

 

There’s no letter left when it leaves.

No knock at the door to say goodbye.

Just the quiet whisper of a closing door.

No chance at a “don’t leave, please.”

 

Copyright © 2016 Taihair Brown

How Quickly Things Change

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You are more than my friend,

You are my support—

My strength when I’m weak.

The light when it gets dark.

You are my very smile,

The reason for this joy in my life.

 

~Then shadows took over the light~

 

You became just a sore memory.

The cause of my pain,

The source of my weakness.

The boulder that broke the camels back.

You are the reason I frown—

The reason I have no joy in my life.

 

Copyright © 2016 Taihair Brown

Four Letters

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Have you ever looked in a mirror,

thought something was missing there?

Something that a mirror can’t show—

And all you can do is stand and stare.

You’re afraid of that empty feeling.

Through all the ups and downs,

the power of emotions running on E.

When that feeling of faith goes astray,

leaving nothing but hurt in its wake.

Now you’re left with your doubts—

Left with your tears and fears.

What is love when it’s the joy that hurts?

When the ups are just a mere memory

and every day is an elevator down.

Love, just a few seconds to say to one.

Love, just a few seconds it can end at once.

The kiss, the touch, the feeling that accompanies—

All of it seems, just so surreal.

One word can create so much happiness.

One word can create so much pain.

Four letters can create so much magic.

How quickly those four letters can change.

Four letters that morph from love to…

Hurt, ache, hate, pain.

You know it was a real cause it hurts.

That faith leaves emotional ache.

That love being replaced with hate.

It’s all you can do to deal with the pain.

What happens when love goes astray

and your forced to deal with it alone?

Love, I wish I never spoke your name.

Now things will never be the same.

Despite the many nights I have cried,

We both know the that cruel truth,

that I’ll find myself singing your song again.
Copyright © 2016 Taihair Brown